Wednesday, September 15, 2010

nothing unfinished

"What's the matter?" Jay waited for me. He looked pretty damn good. I kind of wanted people to think we might be together.

"Aren't you afraid what people might think?" We walked toward home. I've got like 15 minutes to spare before I have to get to my shift.

"Afraid of what?" He winced, but he's smiling.

God, he is in love with my Mom. I think I'm sick. Really and truly. The whole day has been sick. I so want to call in that I'm sick, but I can't. I've missed days. So we hurry. I grabbed an apple to eat. I don't even care what my hair looks like. I feel all sweaty and awful. And I can't talk to Jay. I don't want to. He's really spoiling my day, but then I meet Ren out in the hallway.

"How was it today?" He's Mr. Sunshine. I pressed my lips tight. And I'm on my way. But he came after me as if we must talk. Now. "Hold up." He took my hand. And for a moment I'm still. Completely. I looked back at him wishing I didn't feel the misery of school. "You're not mad at me, are you?" His face tensed and suddenly I feel this ray of sunshine. I have to smile. I have to. He's so different from anyone I've ever met.

Of course, I had to kiss him. I didn't really care who saw us. Maybe I didn't want to hide this. Finally. The time. I am so late.

"I'll see you around 8 then. At the coffee shop." His smile is something to hang on too.

Next thing I know I'm pouring coffee, taking orders for sandwiches. Its like school never happened. Well, I'll forget about it for a little, but of course, there is homework to think about.


Jude said...

Gosh, hope things get better, esp. with beginning of new school year.

lucy and sarah said...

She's still got Ren.

molly said...

I think she'll be OK. Somehow.

simon and josh said...

I think she needs time to relax.

DFF said...

Its hard being a girl.

meg said...

aw, I feel for her. I wouldn't be able to go into work after a day like that.