We arrived before the gates even opened. It was quite lonely at the amusement park. I noticed a Wal-mart bag dancing around the parking lot. It drifted on while we stayed put.
"You sure, you want to do this?" Ren looked at me.
I nodded. "It'll be fun." He'd never been to an amusement park. "I can't believe you've never done this."
"Yeah, I've had a sheltered life, OK." At least, he admitted it. Sure, I wish he were Jess, but maybe it was best that he wasn't. I might not know what was going on. When Jess's around, all I see is him and sometimes, I wonder if thats really what it should be about. Only being swallowed up by him, as if I don't really think.
"You're a good friend, you are." I told him, wanting to say more like, you'll make someone happy one day with that smile of yours. That fare head of yours. But I didn't say that. Because he was just what I wanted. A friend. Someone, I could tell anything to.
He held my hand after he paid. We went running off to be first in line to the roller coaster.
"I can't believe we're doing this." I laughed. I was beginning to think, this guy loved speed. He loved being in motion. He screamed with delight as the ride dipped down in full throttle. My hair went crazy. I squinted hard. Funny, how the lull of being jerked around was so amazingly splendid. A few minutes later we came to a stop.
"You scream like a baby!" He laughed.
"What about you?" I looked at him wide eyed.
"Lets do it again." He grinned.
We found us another seat. This time at the back. Not the front. Still wasn't much of a line. He held me close, like lovers do. But who needed to know if we weren't. After awhile I held on to him too. It was once more a thrill that went up and down, all around. So fast. So quick. There we were again. Trying to get our hearing back from the noise we'd made.
"Fun, huh?" He nodded. I agreed. "Then one more, what do you think?" I nodded.
Luckily, not that many were getting on. We stayed put. He had his arm around me. I felt a little dizzy from so much of the jolt and the speed. He looked around smiling.
"I love being with you." He looked at me then.
"What?" I slightly winced. It felt like such a shock. Maybe I didn't hear him correctly. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe...
The ride started again. And we were close. Very close. I felt as if I might hide in his shirt if given a chance. But his fingers touched my cheek as the ride clicked up the incline. His smile was genuine. It was as if I could see how he might have been as a child. Something so innocent. It was as if I could get used to this as we made it to the top. But soon the rush hit and his lips met mine. It was exhilarating. My heart pounding. It was like I knew, things had changed. We were together now.